Part 2

Alrighty...here's my second blog of the day. I figure it's been a while so i would be an overacheiver today. Well I will finish what i started in to say in my last post about last night. i won't go into too much detail just because it would take too long. Basically I ended up getting into it with another youth sponsor. I am not one for confrontation, at all. Most of the time I will just walk away and not really deal with issues alot of the time. Well this time I couldn't just walk away from it, that's how upset i was with this person's behavior. I told them exactly how I felt about the issue and I think I was justified in everything I said. Of course i ended up saying all of this through tears because that's how I get in highly upsetting or emotional situations. that's why I normal don't get into conflict, I cry, and who likes letting people they don't really like well see them cry? Well, I talked to this person, they apologized and said that they would make it right with the other people involved, but I can't really say any of that made me feel better about the situation. How many times can one person get away with the same exact thing before some consequences are put into place? Just because someone is willing to do ministry doesn't mean they necessarily should. Atleast not in an upfront way. Well, that's how i ended my night at church, in tears. Josh made me take a walk with him and when I finally started venting to him about everything is when I started to feel better. I'm thankful for a boyfriend who is pacient enough to wait until I am ready to talk, rather than forcing me to tell him what's going on with me. But anyway, after that my night went better. It was partly just everything accumulating together. People don't know how tough and stressful it is to be the girlfriend of the youth pastor! Give the girl a break!


So, tonight I got to hang out with my dear friend Anna which was nice since we have both been busy and not had alot of time. Even though i don't have alot of people that I can call my true friends, i am extremely greatful for the ones that I can share anything with! I know I can lack appreciation for these people alot of the time, but i truly am thankful for them! I hope that I can be as good a friend to them as what I want for myself. Sometimes i have remind myself that there really are people out there that care for me and will be there for me whenever I need them!! Thanks to those of you out there who are my true friends! I thank God for you!!!!