It's been a while.....Here you go Jaye! :)

Alrighty, here is the update you have all been waiting for! Well, Jaye has been waiting for it atleast. I will cram the last 4 months into a few lines. I'm engaged! Woo Hoo! Getting married in may. Graduating in April. Can't wait to be done. Busy with work, practicum, school and wedding plans. I officially HATE group work and can't wait til the semester is finished so I don't have to deal with it anymore. As of right now I am looking forward to spring break and having a week off from homework where I can focus on relaxing and wedding stuff. It will be the first real break I have had since last school year since my Christmas break was jam packed with stuff. For the most part things seem to be going smoothly. School is stressful at times and work can be frustrating but basically I have a good life. I am excited to see what God has waiting for my life as a married woman and college graduate! Toodles! :)

Busy, Busy Busy

I have been beyond busy lately! I have never been so busy in my life! It's crazy. Here's a typical week in the life of Suzie. Monday as actually an easy day most of the time. I just have class at 10 and chapel at 11 then I am free until my practicum from 5-7:30. Then I usually have some free time after that. Tuesday starts off my business. I have practicum from 9:30 to 11 (i usually leave a bit early to get to class) class from 11-12, 12-1:30, and 1:40-3. Then I go back to practicum from 5-7:30 and then I have some free time. Wednesday's the past couple of weeks I have had class at 10 and chapel at 11, then I have taken lunch to Josh in Hartford City and hung out over there to help him with church stuff until Youth Group at 6:30. We usually end up staying at the church until 10 or 11. Then thursday there's staff meeting from 9-10:30, grab lunch, class at 12 and 1:40 then get to work by 4 and work til 12. Friday is another fairly easy day for me. I have class at 10 then chapel at 11 and then I'm free until work from 4-12. Saturday I've been working 4-12 and sunday there's been church from 9:30-12:30 then work from 4-12.

Unfortuately, even though I do have some free time in there it doesn't seem to match up with the free time of my friends or boyfriend so there hasn't been much time to get to hang out with anyone. So to those people who want to hang out with me, you now know my free times during the week so get ahold of me if you want to hang out!

In other news, despite my business I have really been enjoying my practicum and job. I love being able to interact with people and feel like i am doing a good job with it. It's nice to work hard somewhere and actually be appreciated for that! I have never gotten that at a job before. I hope that God will open up doors for me to do something like this when I graduate in April. I have been thinking about case work, I'm just scared of actually getting started, which is also my fear when I start something new, but it also turns out good when I get the hang of it, just like my job. I'm just excited to start the next chapter of my life, move out on my own, get a job and support myself. It's a scary place to be but I think I am more than capable of handling it.

Part 2

Alrighty...here's my second blog of the day. I figure it's been a while so i would be an overacheiver today. Well I will finish what i started in to say in my last post about last night. i won't go into too much detail just because it would take too long. Basically I ended up getting into it with another youth sponsor. I am not one for confrontation, at all. Most of the time I will just walk away and not really deal with issues alot of the time. Well this time I couldn't just walk away from it, that's how upset i was with this person's behavior. I told them exactly how I felt about the issue and I think I was justified in everything I said. Of course i ended up saying all of this through tears because that's how I get in highly upsetting or emotional situations. that's why I normal don't get into conflict, I cry, and who likes letting people they don't really like well see them cry? Well, I talked to this person, they apologized and said that they would make it right with the other people involved, but I can't really say any of that made me feel better about the situation. How many times can one person get away with the same exact thing before some consequences are put into place? Just because someone is willing to do ministry doesn't mean they necessarily should. Atleast not in an upfront way. Well, that's how i ended my night at church, in tears. Josh made me take a walk with him and when I finally started venting to him about everything is when I started to feel better. I'm thankful for a boyfriend who is pacient enough to wait until I am ready to talk, rather than forcing me to tell him what's going on with me. But anyway, after that my night went better. It was partly just everything accumulating together. People don't know how tough and stressful it is to be the girlfriend of the youth pastor! Give the girl a break!


So, tonight I got to hang out with my dear friend Anna which was nice since we have both been busy and not had alot of time. Even though i don't have alot of people that I can call my true friends, i am extremely greatful for the ones that I can share anything with! I know I can lack appreciation for these people alot of the time, but i truly am thankful for them! I hope that I can be as good a friend to them as what I want for myself. Sometimes i have remind myself that there really are people out there that care for me and will be there for me whenever I need them!! Thanks to those of you out there who are my true friends! I thank God for you!!!!

Here's another blog for the Holland Family....Are ya happy? :)

Alright alright....I haven't really had much time to update this but since Jess and Jaye are begging....i guess i can let you know what's been going on with me. Well, alot has actually happened with me in the past week or so. I had my interview at grant-blackford, then got called back to get a drug test and tb test done which I assume I passed because i called back on monday and they had me come in later that afternoon to do orientation!! So yesterday was my first official day of training at a house called stepping stone. I won't go into detail about what I will be doing with my job because I don't have much time right now cuz my class will be starting soon. Basically the biggest part of my job is to supervise with the clients taking their meds, which is really nerve racking because it could be really bad if I were to get it wrong! Anyway, right now I feel kind of lost and overwhelmed by it just because i don't really know what to do or say. Hopefully it won't take me long to get the hang out it. I will be working mostly second shift and on the weekends so it should be interesting to see how it all ends up working out.

Last night there was some drama at youth that REALLY made me miss chapel pike and everyone there. Especially the youth sponsors! Brian, definately don't forget to appreciate the amazing people you have working for you because it is not like that at very many churches! Anyway, because I am the "girlfriend" Josh informed me that there was no way the the church would support me monitarily to go to SetApart. Which, isn't a big deal because between working there and my parents paying for the plane ticket, it wasn't going to cost me anything anyway. However, just the fact the i am the "girlfriend" I guess that means that I don't get to have the same priviledges that each of the other youth sponsors have no matter what the event is. For example, if junior high weekend were coming up soon (which I have been the female youth sponsor that attended for the past two years at chapel pike) I would't be able to go as the female youth sponsor with hartford city because I am the "girlfriend" and somehow it wouldn't be fair for me to get to go, because of the fact only. Atleast this is how I understand the situation. Any suggestions about how I should handle this? Is it right for me to be treated unfairly because I happened to be dating the youth pastor? What do you think? Well, that's not the only thing that happened last night, but it was the first thing which accumulated to me having a very emotional night. I will write more after class. I gotta run!

Yay for comments!!

So I am pretty sure that Brian and Jaye- you're the only people who have looked at my new blog but that's ok because you left comments!! Love you guys!!

So I have decided that curly hair is a huge pain in the butt. I went to get my hair cut this morning and asked the lady to do something different with my hair, but to still keep it long. Well she told me that there's not much you can do with curly hair without making it look stupid so I just got the normal layer thing done. She also was telling me about this shampoo that is made especially for curly hair and makes it so it doesn't get frizzy. Well unfortuately a small bottle of that stuff is $12! The big bottle is $24 but you get 3 times as much. I ended up buying some of it because i'm really sick of my hair not doing what I want it to. The hair dresser also told me that i should probably grow my bangs out because they were getting fried from straightening them. I already knew this, but I guess it just leaves me no other option. I know there are those of you out there who love my hair, but until you live with it, you wouldn't understand the hassle it gives me. Hopefully this shampoo stuff is a miracle because that's what i paid for!

In other news, classes start in about a week. Now that I am actually living back at school i'm not really ready to start again, but I know it will go by super fast and i will probably want my school days back once i'm out in the real world. I still haven't heard from Grant-Blackford about a job, but I called friday and she was supposed to let the people know i had called about it. Hopefully I will hear back this week because it's going to be hard for me to say no to working the jobs i do now even though I really do not want to go back to them. Jen moved some of her stuff in today so she will be back for good later tonight. Her me and Tami are having a sleep over so hopefully it will be a night full of fun and laughter. I'm also opening the snack shop up later for a thing that's going on with the youth group. I hope to sell lots of candy!!

This is the beginning...

Ok, so I am joining the blogging community for several reasons. First and foremost, I keep reading Brian and Jaye's blog and i want to comment but I can't because i didn't have an account. Well now I do, so comment away I shall do! Secondly, I like writing, and it seems alot easier to navagate through here than it is on xanga, which is a retarded site if you ask me. Thirdly, well i'm not really sure what the third one would be.

Anyway, tonight i am starting my first official night at Hartford City Wesleyan as a youth sponsor. I could not be more excited about this! I love that Josh has given me so much responsibility through running the snack shop and being the youth treasurer. I feel more involved and I hope that it will be a great way to get to know the teens better. I'm so excited to see what God has in store for this youth group through the next year because i know he is doing some amazing things already. I just hope the church itself is ready for the impact the youth are going to have.

I have yet to hear back from Grant-Blackford about the job I applied for last week, which somewhat worries me. I'm not looking forward to working two jobs on campus all school year, and i have really gotten my hopes up about this new job opportunity. Hopefully, I will hear from them soon!

Well, I am going to navigate my way through some of the opportunities that this site has to offer.