Part 2

Alrighty...here's my second blog of the day. I figure it's been a while so i would be an overacheiver today. Well I will finish what i started in to say in my last post about last night. i won't go into too much detail just because it would take too long. Basically I ended up getting into it with another youth sponsor. I am not one for confrontation, at all. Most of the time I will just walk away and not really deal with issues alot of the time. Well this time I couldn't just walk away from it, that's how upset i was with this person's behavior. I told them exactly how I felt about the issue and I think I was justified in everything I said. Of course i ended up saying all of this through tears because that's how I get in highly upsetting or emotional situations. that's why I normal don't get into conflict, I cry, and who likes letting people they don't really like well see them cry? Well, I talked to this person, they apologized and said that they would make it right with the other people involved, but I can't really say any of that made me feel better about the situation. How many times can one person get away with the same exact thing before some consequences are put into place? Just because someone is willing to do ministry doesn't mean they necessarily should. Atleast not in an upfront way. Well, that's how i ended my night at church, in tears. Josh made me take a walk with him and when I finally started venting to him about everything is when I started to feel better. I'm thankful for a boyfriend who is pacient enough to wait until I am ready to talk, rather than forcing me to tell him what's going on with me. But anyway, after that my night went better. It was partly just everything accumulating together. People don't know how tough and stressful it is to be the girlfriend of the youth pastor! Give the girl a break!


So, tonight I got to hang out with my dear friend Anna which was nice since we have both been busy and not had alot of time. Even though i don't have alot of people that I can call my true friends, i am extremely greatful for the ones that I can share anything with! I know I can lack appreciation for these people alot of the time, but i truly am thankful for them! I hope that I can be as good a friend to them as what I want for myself. Sometimes i have remind myself that there really are people out there that care for me and will be there for me whenever I need them!! Thanks to those of you out there who are my true friends! I thank God for you!!!!

Here's another blog for the Holland Family....Are ya happy? :)

Alright alright....I haven't really had much time to update this but since Jess and Jaye are begging....i guess i can let you know what's been going on with me. Well, alot has actually happened with me in the past week or so. I had my interview at grant-blackford, then got called back to get a drug test and tb test done which I assume I passed because i called back on monday and they had me come in later that afternoon to do orientation!! So yesterday was my first official day of training at a house called stepping stone. I won't go into detail about what I will be doing with my job because I don't have much time right now cuz my class will be starting soon. Basically the biggest part of my job is to supervise with the clients taking their meds, which is really nerve racking because it could be really bad if I were to get it wrong! Anyway, right now I feel kind of lost and overwhelmed by it just because i don't really know what to do or say. Hopefully it won't take me long to get the hang out it. I will be working mostly second shift and on the weekends so it should be interesting to see how it all ends up working out.

Last night there was some drama at youth that REALLY made me miss chapel pike and everyone there. Especially the youth sponsors! Brian, definately don't forget to appreciate the amazing people you have working for you because it is not like that at very many churches! Anyway, because I am the "girlfriend" Josh informed me that there was no way the the church would support me monitarily to go to SetApart. Which, isn't a big deal because between working there and my parents paying for the plane ticket, it wasn't going to cost me anything anyway. However, just the fact the i am the "girlfriend" I guess that means that I don't get to have the same priviledges that each of the other youth sponsors have no matter what the event is. For example, if junior high weekend were coming up soon (which I have been the female youth sponsor that attended for the past two years at chapel pike) I would't be able to go as the female youth sponsor with hartford city because I am the "girlfriend" and somehow it wouldn't be fair for me to get to go, because of the fact only. Atleast this is how I understand the situation. Any suggestions about how I should handle this? Is it right for me to be treated unfairly because I happened to be dating the youth pastor? What do you think? Well, that's not the only thing that happened last night, but it was the first thing which accumulated to me having a very emotional night. I will write more after class. I gotta run!